Let me make some adjustments or should I say, some clarifications about my posts entitled "Updates confusing?". I mentioned my friend Aimee W. in this post so I would like to clarify just a few things that I said.
I don't think that she chose the boring path of life at all. Actually, if anyone chose the boring path to life, unfortunately that will probably be me. That's what I meant by the re-runs. In some ways I'm envious of these people who post the photos of their families on facebook and such. I just did not choose that path in life because the responsibility absolutely terrifies me.
But if anybody has re-runs it's me. Yes, I have a great life and all, very little responsibility if any, one concert, trip, or exciting adventure after another. But ultimately at the end of the day, the only entity I have to share these adventures with is this blog. Lets not forget about the two dogs nevertheless. But they have a tendency not to talk back very much.
So what I meant, it just doesn't seem possible that enough time has gone by for any of my friends to have families to be posting pictures of. It literally feels like yesterday that we got out of high school. Or for those of you who remember, it seems like just yesterday when I drove my tractor to school. (For those of you who don't live around here anymore, they still have tracker day at WHS.)
If you'll go back and reread my posts, that ultimate question was, "What makes a person feel fulfilled, wanted, validated, needed?" Does this always have to come from being in a relationship with another person? For those of you that have not read the comments, you really should read at least the first comment from Anonymous. It's so good, I printed it out and put it on my wall.
Whoever this person was that left the comment, I hope is a psychologist or psychiatrist. I thought it was an excellent comment. So feel free to leave additional comments. You can always leave them anonymously or leave your name. It doesn't matter to me.
One more thing, just a big thank you to the editor for this blog. A lot of you don't realize, that I actually do the blog, and then it goes to an editor. She doesn't replace any of my words but corrects the spelling and corrects the grammar, so these blog posts will actually make sense. Big thank you to the editor. This blog would not be possible without her. The editor girl and I have actually become very close friends, it least on my side, during this process. She's one of the very few people that I've actually grown to trust. So thanks again to the anonymous editor.
One last thought on the comment that was left last on the blog. Mr./Ms. Anonymous says to get these two toxic girls out of my daily thought. While that is some excellent advice, now could you please leave a comment on some action steps to actually accomplish this? Especially with the one toxic girl. You must understand for a period of three years I lived, breathed, slept, worked and did everything with her. It is a little hard just to get her out of my daily thoughts. I welcome any action steps you might suggest. Thanks to all of you for reading the blog. LOW
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Thank you, Anonymous
Oh my goodness, this is exactly what I have tried to get across about getting the two toxic people out of his thoughts. I could not have said it better.
It takes personal discipline to not think about them or let them effect your daily life. Just like eating right. You know the things you shouldn't be eating and when you do eat something that you shouldn't, then you try harder the next time to avoid it.
Same idea with your thoughts. If this poison comes up, banish it from your mind. Find something else to occupy yourself. And don't allow yourself to go back there again. Yes, easier said than done, but practice makes perfect.
Try little bits at a time. Say to yourself, "I won't think about that for one day." Then I won't think about that for two days.
And you know, that would include not posting about it either.
We need some new subjects to post about. New discussion topics. I'll be thinking. Gotta run for now.
It takes personal discipline to not think about them or let them effect your daily life. Just like eating right. You know the things you shouldn't be eating and when you do eat something that you shouldn't, then you try harder the next time to avoid it.
Same idea with your thoughts. If this poison comes up, banish it from your mind. Find something else to occupy yourself. And don't allow yourself to go back there again. Yes, easier said than done, but practice makes perfect.
Try little bits at a time. Say to yourself, "I won't think about that for one day." Then I won't think about that for two days.
And you know, that would include not posting about it either.
We need some new subjects to post about. New discussion topics. I'll be thinking. Gotta run for now.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Fleetwood Mac
Okay, off to the Fleetwood Mac concert I go. I'm not sure when you will actually read this, because it does take a few days to get through the editor. But I'm going to see Fleetwood Mac in Dallas on Thursday. I'll upload some photos and some twitter updates from the concert. I can't wait to see them. I can't believe these legends are still in concert. If by chance you're going to be at the concert this Thursday in Dallas, be sure and Twitter me and let me know.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
"Better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all"
For some reason this quote popped in my head today that Little One used to always tell me. She used to always say, " Better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all." Well I think that quote is full of crap. I will back up my reasons and then I'm curious if any of you have any comments on this.
1. It's like having a Jaguar or Lamborghini and someone takes it away from you. While I wouldn't say, "Its better to have had a Jaguar or Lamborghini than never to have had one at all." If I can't keep the Jaguar or the Lamborghini than I had rather not have one at all.
2. Could you say the same about cocaine, "better to have tried cocaine than never to have tried it at all?"
3. Well there is no number three. I just think this quote "Better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all" is crap. If you had never loved at all, you wouldn't have any idea what you were missing. It's kind of like driving the Lamborghini, if you've never driven a Lamborghini then you wouldn't know what you are missing. How could you get sad or depressed or upset or miss the Lamborghini if you never had it to begin with?
I'm thinking of my friend Little Buddy. He is 24 or 25 and he has never loved at all. Maybe I should say he's never been in love before. He seems to go about his life just fine, because he has no idea what he's missing. So truly it makes me think of it like a cocaine or drug addict. You just can't tell me that drug addicts would say, "Better to have tried the drug than to never have tried it at all." From then on, they spend their whole life trying to find the feeling they had when they were using the drug.
Now the question is, could love be a drug? And then when you don't have it, you are constantly searching for it? Just in case I haven't made myself clear, and Little One happens to read this post, I think that quote and her thought is total crap unless someone else can convince me otherwise.
Oh yes one last thing, let's get some comments going on this blog. I welcome any comments, questions or thoughts. You can leave a comment anonymously, if you choose, but I'm curious of what some of you have to think about these ideas/posts that I have. And don't just e-mail them to me directly, leave a comment on the blog. There something to be said for a good healthy debate.
1. It's like having a Jaguar or Lamborghini and someone takes it away from you. While I wouldn't say, "Its better to have had a Jaguar or Lamborghini than never to have had one at all." If I can't keep the Jaguar or the Lamborghini than I had rather not have one at all.
2. Could you say the same about cocaine, "better to have tried cocaine than never to have tried it at all?"
3. Well there is no number three. I just think this quote "Better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all" is crap. If you had never loved at all, you wouldn't have any idea what you were missing. It's kind of like driving the Lamborghini, if you've never driven a Lamborghini then you wouldn't know what you are missing. How could you get sad or depressed or upset or miss the Lamborghini if you never had it to begin with?
I'm thinking of my friend Little Buddy. He is 24 or 25 and he has never loved at all. Maybe I should say he's never been in love before. He seems to go about his life just fine, because he has no idea what he's missing. So truly it makes me think of it like a cocaine or drug addict. You just can't tell me that drug addicts would say, "Better to have tried the drug than to never have tried it at all." From then on, they spend their whole life trying to find the feeling they had when they were using the drug.
Now the question is, could love be a drug? And then when you don't have it, you are constantly searching for it? Just in case I haven't made myself clear, and Little One happens to read this post, I think that quote and her thought is total crap unless someone else can convince me otherwise.
Oh yes one last thing, let's get some comments going on this blog. I welcome any comments, questions or thoughts. You can leave a comment anonymously, if you choose, but I'm curious of what some of you have to think about these ideas/posts that I have. And don't just e-mail them to me directly, leave a comment on the blog. There something to be said for a good healthy debate.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Updates Confusing?
Well, I've got several subjects to talk about in this post. Several ideas and things that I thought about over the last few weeks.
Number one: Twitter? Why is this Twitter phenomenon sweeping the country? And yes I am one that tweats. Why do we feel the need to share these random comments like what we're having for dinner, can't sleep, or just what we're doing. And I am saying, first of all, I am in this crowd. I personally tell myself that I tweat because it's a way of keeping up with things that I've done or places that I'm going or have gone. So to me it's a comical look back to see some of my old tweats.
Number two: The-M Word. Yes she has called again. It was good to hear from her but yet it was a very awkward conversation in my opinion. I don't necessarily mean awkward in a bad way or good way; it was just awkward. I still have some mixed feelings for her but I'm not even sure what they are. Part of me still really cares for her, the other part dislikes her intently for the things that she did to me during our relationship. But nevertheless don't get me wrong, I was glad to hear from her. I guess she can look back and find things that she dislikes intently about the things I did as well in our relationship. So I guess we're even.
Number three: The Compass. Okay, The Compass, I do a lot better on this blogging thing when I'm asked questions. So get to asking some questions or making some comments. That's what gets me to thinking about things and then I do more blog posts.
Number four: Face book. This fasebook thing has skyrocketed. It's kind of cool. I've found tons of my old classmates on facebook that I've always kind of wondered where they were or what they were doing. But there is also an extreme awkward part of this. And I mean very awkward for me at least. I still feel like I just got off out of high school last week. I have no wives or ex-wives; I have no kids or step kids. I literally feel like it wasn't that long ago when I got out of high school. I still feel really young and I feel like I still act really young in a good way. So it's so awkward to see these people on facebook that I went to high school with and their photos with their wives or their husbands and their kids. Listing my friend Aimee W, for example. I went to high school with her. She was one of my good friends. I was very good friends with her family but for some reason I just cannot see her as a mother. And I don't mean that in any bad way at all, but I was looking at her facebook updates and she was talking about being a mother and this and that. Well, it seems like yesterday I was just going to Sonic to see her where she worked.
I guess it's just strange realizing that others do live their lives with some sense of responsibility, when I still feel like I live mine with very little responsibility. That's why I've really never wanted children. This may move on into number five as it really has nothing to do with facebook. But this whole children thing has just got me kind of buffaloed. I just never have had the desire to have any children, number one and number two, that sense of responsibility absolutely terrifies me to death. It seems like such the thing to do. Go to high school, go to college, get married, have children and then get divorced. Right? Isn't that what most of our society is doing? Or have I got this all wrong and this is what you need to feel fulfilled in life? I don't feel any sense of responsibility but at the same time I don't necessarily feel fulfilled either. So leads me to the next question.
What makes a person feel fulfilled, needed, wanted, verified, important and valid? I would love to hear what some of you had to say about this.
Number six: (or number seven) Whichever way you look at life, it's a rerun. Life is seeming to be one gigantic reroute. I mean, this life of very little responsibility and getting to go where you want to go and pretty much getting to do what you want to do is great and all, but it also seems like it's a gigantic rerun day after day, month after month and year after year. It just seems like it's the same thing. What makes it exciting? I can think of a handful of times that I can remember that I felt like life was exciting, but unfortunately those handful of times involved being in a relationship with someone. So, is that what it takes? For you to have another person to feel that excitement? Okay, Compass there are some really good pondering questions in here for you.
Number seven: (and number eight depends on how you look at) Littleone versus the M-Word. I still have this internal conflict going on between these two, Little One and the M-Word. Take a quick break if you're new to this blog and go back and read some of the past posts. It will explain to you who the M-Word is and who Little One is..
... Back from a quick break? I look back over the time I spent with the M-Word and I must say it was utter torture. I don't blame this necessarily upon her, I blame this on the particular time in her life that this relationship is went on. But the sad thing is, I don't feel like I could ever return to that relationship because of the lack of trust that's there. That is very sad to me.
Now let's take the Little One relationship. I cannot think of another three years that were, at the time, the most blissful to me. Yes, it was all a lie but I didn't know that at the time. And it's not as if I could return to that relationship or want to because of the extreme lack of trust there as well. These are the only two significant relationships that I have to compare anything with. I really don't know what the whole point of this is but that it just all seems very confusing sometimes. So, I will end this post for now and let the wonderful Compass make some great comments. LOW
Number one: Twitter? Why is this Twitter phenomenon sweeping the country? And yes I am one that tweats. Why do we feel the need to share these random comments like what we're having for dinner, can't sleep, or just what we're doing. And I am saying, first of all, I am in this crowd. I personally tell myself that I tweat because it's a way of keeping up with things that I've done or places that I'm going or have gone. So to me it's a comical look back to see some of my old tweats.
Number two: The-M Word. Yes she has called again. It was good to hear from her but yet it was a very awkward conversation in my opinion. I don't necessarily mean awkward in a bad way or good way; it was just awkward. I still have some mixed feelings for her but I'm not even sure what they are. Part of me still really cares for her, the other part dislikes her intently for the things that she did to me during our relationship. But nevertheless don't get me wrong, I was glad to hear from her. I guess she can look back and find things that she dislikes intently about the things I did as well in our relationship. So I guess we're even.
Number three: The Compass. Okay, The Compass, I do a lot better on this blogging thing when I'm asked questions. So get to asking some questions or making some comments. That's what gets me to thinking about things and then I do more blog posts.
Number four: Face book. This fasebook thing has skyrocketed. It's kind of cool. I've found tons of my old classmates on facebook that I've always kind of wondered where they were or what they were doing. But there is also an extreme awkward part of this. And I mean very awkward for me at least. I still feel like I just got off out of high school last week. I have no wives or ex-wives; I have no kids or step kids. I literally feel like it wasn't that long ago when I got out of high school. I still feel really young and I feel like I still act really young in a good way. So it's so awkward to see these people on facebook that I went to high school with and their photos with their wives or their husbands and their kids. Listing my friend Aimee W, for example. I went to high school with her. She was one of my good friends. I was very good friends with her family but for some reason I just cannot see her as a mother. And I don't mean that in any bad way at all, but I was looking at her facebook updates and she was talking about being a mother and this and that. Well, it seems like yesterday I was just going to Sonic to see her where she worked.
I guess it's just strange realizing that others do live their lives with some sense of responsibility, when I still feel like I live mine with very little responsibility. That's why I've really never wanted children. This may move on into number five as it really has nothing to do with facebook. But this whole children thing has just got me kind of buffaloed. I just never have had the desire to have any children, number one and number two, that sense of responsibility absolutely terrifies me to death. It seems like such the thing to do. Go to high school, go to college, get married, have children and then get divorced. Right? Isn't that what most of our society is doing? Or have I got this all wrong and this is what you need to feel fulfilled in life? I don't feel any sense of responsibility but at the same time I don't necessarily feel fulfilled either. So leads me to the next question.
What makes a person feel fulfilled, needed, wanted, verified, important and valid? I would love to hear what some of you had to say about this.
Number six: (or number seven) Whichever way you look at life, it's a rerun. Life is seeming to be one gigantic reroute. I mean, this life of very little responsibility and getting to go where you want to go and pretty much getting to do what you want to do is great and all, but it also seems like it's a gigantic rerun day after day, month after month and year after year. It just seems like it's the same thing. What makes it exciting? I can think of a handful of times that I can remember that I felt like life was exciting, but unfortunately those handful of times involved being in a relationship with someone. So, is that what it takes? For you to have another person to feel that excitement? Okay, Compass there are some really good pondering questions in here for you.
Number seven: (and number eight depends on how you look at) Littleone versus the M-Word. I still have this internal conflict going on between these two, Little One and the M-Word. Take a quick break if you're new to this blog and go back and read some of the past posts. It will explain to you who the M-Word is and who Little One is..
... Back from a quick break? I look back over the time I spent with the M-Word and I must say it was utter torture. I don't blame this necessarily upon her, I blame this on the particular time in her life that this relationship is went on. But the sad thing is, I don't feel like I could ever return to that relationship because of the lack of trust that's there. That is very sad to me.
Now let's take the Little One relationship. I cannot think of another three years that were, at the time, the most blissful to me. Yes, it was all a lie but I didn't know that at the time. And it's not as if I could return to that relationship or want to because of the extreme lack of trust there as well. These are the only two significant relationships that I have to compare anything with. I really don't know what the whole point of this is but that it just all seems very confusing sometimes. So, I will end this post for now and let the wonderful Compass make some great comments. LOW
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Surely by now you've all heard of Twitter? Well if you have not, a Twitter is like a Blog. I think it's cool and evidently thousands of other people do too. But I need some followers. So if you're not on twitter yet, number one sign up for Twitter, number two follow wildeco, number three be happy.
It is cool to see what others are doing and you can post what you're doing. Check it out because I know you've heard of it on the news. So now it's time that you joined Twitter. And by the way thanks for following me. All you have to do is click here and follow the simple directions. LOW
It is cool to see what others are doing and you can post what you're doing. Check it out because I know you've heard of it on the news. So now it's time that you joined Twitter. And by the way thanks for following me. All you have to do is click here and follow the simple directions. LOW
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Cool!!
Many of you, I'm sure, saw the photo that I posted a few days ago from the Success Symposium. Well, I have this new gadget that is just too cool. It's called the Pulse Smart Pen.
When you're in a meeting, class, or just taking some notes that you want to remember it records all the audio as you write. So I tried it out for the first time at the Success Symposium. These are my notes that I took from one of the speakers which was John Addison. It's about 29 minutes long so all you do is click here and push the play button and you will hear John speak.
You will see me taking the notes at the same time. And yes those of you who know me I still don't have very good handwriting and I still can't spell worth a flip. That's why all these blog posts go to an editor before they actually are posted. Thank you to the editor. You should all thank the editor.
Okay, so just click here and you'll see what I'm talking about. This is way cool.
When you're in a meeting, class, or just taking some notes that you want to remember it records all the audio as you write. So I tried it out for the first time at the Success Symposium. These are my notes that I took from one of the speakers which was John Addison. It's about 29 minutes long so all you do is click here and push the play button and you will hear John speak.
You will see me taking the notes at the same time. And yes those of you who know me I still don't have very good handwriting and I still can't spell worth a flip. That's why all these blog posts go to an editor before they actually are posted. Thank you to the editor. You should all thank the editor.
Okay, so just click here and you'll see what I'm talking about. This is way cool.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Updates?
Updates? Well let's see, I don't have very many updates.
I just found out that I'm going to have to make a quick trip to Norman, Oklahoma on either Sunday or Monday and come right back.
I guess one update is I bought myself a ticket to go see Def Leppard in concert. It's not for a few months but I bought my ticket early. For some reason I've been on this Def Leppard kick.
I've also found out that Mutt Lang produced a whole bunch of their albums. If you don't know who Mutt Lang is its Shania Twain's husband which produced all of her albums, and he also produced AC/DC, Brian Adams, and The Corrs. In my opinion he is an excellent producer and I'm a huge Shania Twain fan, and a huge fan of the Corrs.
As for more updates, The Compass and I have got a weight loss challenge going on. It started April 1 and it's going to run 90 days. Whichever one of us loses the most percent of body fat is going to get $100. I hate to tell The Compass but The Compass might as well go ahead and get the money ready, because I want to win this one.
Do any of you out there shop on Amazon.com? If you do, go to amazon.wildeco.com and start from that website. It will help me out. You can also go to amazon.johnnywilde.com and start from there. So please bookmark the sites. Whenever you buy from Amazon just start from there and it will give me credit and I will greatly appreciate it.
I do have a concert coming up at the end of this month, Fleetwood Mac in Dallas. I'm very much looking forward to this.
That's all the updates for now, more of Low later. One more thing, where is The Compass? Usually there are some provoking statements or questions that get me going.
Low
I just found out that I'm going to have to make a quick trip to Norman, Oklahoma on either Sunday or Monday and come right back.
I guess one update is I bought myself a ticket to go see Def Leppard in concert. It's not for a few months but I bought my ticket early. For some reason I've been on this Def Leppard kick.
I've also found out that Mutt Lang produced a whole bunch of their albums. If you don't know who Mutt Lang is its Shania Twain's husband which produced all of her albums, and he also produced AC/DC, Brian Adams, and The Corrs. In my opinion he is an excellent producer and I'm a huge Shania Twain fan, and a huge fan of the Corrs.
As for more updates, The Compass and I have got a weight loss challenge going on. It started April 1 and it's going to run 90 days. Whichever one of us loses the most percent of body fat is going to get $100. I hate to tell The Compass but The Compass might as well go ahead and get the money ready, because I want to win this one.
Do any of you out there shop on Amazon.com? If you do, go to amazon.wildeco.com and start from that website. It will help me out. You can also go to amazon.johnnywilde.com and start from there. So please bookmark the sites. Whenever you buy from Amazon just start from there and it will give me credit and I will greatly appreciate it.
I do have a concert coming up at the end of this month, Fleetwood Mac in Dallas. I'm very much looking forward to this.
That's all the updates for now, more of Low later. One more thing, where is The Compass? Usually there are some provoking statements or questions that get me going.
Low
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
A little while
Well, it's been a little while since I've written anything on the blog. But I've been doing a considerable amount of traveling. Here is my friend Kevin and I at the San Antonio Livestock Show and Rodeo where Brooks & Dunn performed live. The next weekend, I was back in San Antonio to see Elton John and Billy Joel. Now that was one heck of a concert. They played for 3 1/2 hours straight. If you ever get a chance to see them you definitely should.
The next week I was off to Dallas to the Success Symposium. We got to see speakers such as Steadman Graham, John Maxwell, and Connie Podesta. Kevin and I even got to have breakfast with Steadman Graham. Here's a great photo from that.
Moving on to some other things, it sure has been awfully quiet from the M-Word. I guess one phone call and all is forgiven. I guess we're better off this way.
Okay, next concert is Fleetwood Mac. I will be filling you in on them and a few more details later. --LOW
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