List (Update)

List

My list of the five people that have affected me the most(In no order).I am going to add to this from time to time. Who are your five and why?

1. My dad - Smart - More to come.....

2. Littleone - Perplexing - Well this story could fill up a book. And I just might write one someday. We met in July of 2003. I am not sure of the day but from the day we met we were together almost all the time. The last time I saw her was December of 2006 and I am not sure of the day. I think it is wield to spend that much time with someone and then never see them again. More to come.....................................Well the wait is over. Saw her for the first time in 2+ years on May 12 2008. Slowly I am able to write about her. I would say that she was one of my first "real true" loves. I used to tell her if we ever broke up that I did not think I would date again for a really long time and she did not believe me. She said I would move on fast. Well I wish she would have been right. I have dated a little here and there but even after all this time I still feel very hurt and betrayed. I have major trust issues. Still to this day I am not sure who I really dated or who I was in love with or how much of our relationship was real? People tell me I don't really miss our relationship I miss the relationship I thought we had. Well maybe that is true but I really miss something. I miss the dynamites we had. We did everything together and I am not sure I will ever let someone in that far again. More to come.......

3. The M-Word - Unavailable - I would say that she taught that know matter how much you love someone you can not make them love you back. Also just because you are willing to do anything for someone that does not mean that they will or will want to do it back. Also she make me really understand : The Definition Of Commitment Is Doing The Thing You Said You Would Do Long After The Feeling You Said It In Has Left You. - Jeff Olson : She was the first person I would have done anything for at the time. I also learned to always date girls that have a backbone and will stand up for what for they want. I also learn to go for something all the way when you really want something. She would say she really wanted to be together(and I believed her and still do) but she was not willing to do what it would take to make it happen. She was living to make other people happy not herself. Which in my own opinion she still does to this day. "If something is not worth getting all worked up over perhaps it is not worth doing at all" More to come...............

4. Jim Rohn - Philosophy - Started listening to him when I was about 17. I have met him 2 times. More to come.....

5. Bob Mayer - Integrity - I met bob when I was 16 or 17. More to come....