What I Feel Today

This what I feel today. The Updated LIST will be coming out slowly over the next few weeks.
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I said in "The List" in Littleone's description: "Actually when I think about it, I don't want the next years to be like any of the past years." This goes back to the long debate I had on LOW with several people sometime back. I can't remember exactly when it was, but I was saying back then "when I wrote the blog post" if I had it to do all over again I would've never had the Littleone or The M-Word relationship. I didn't learn anything from it and they were nothing but bad experiences. (I wished I could find where I wrote that. Let me just give you all a hint right here and now if you ever start your own blog make sure you use the feature called labels. It helps you find things a lot faster.) Let me speak to what I feel today.

What I Feel Today 

1. My dad - Smart
I feel like this relationship has greatly impacted who I am today. And not for the better. I did not ask to come to this earth. My parents chose to bring me here. Therefore I believe it is their duty, an obligation to make it a wonderful experience for a child that they asked for. If I had been asked to come here I would have politely declined.

2. Littleone - Perplexing
I feel this relationship did absolutely nothing but have negative effects in my life. If I could rewind time and go back to the very day that I was going to meet her I would've skipped that day. There has been no beneficial anything that I can find to having had this relationship. In fact I believe it's had a major negative effect on my life and where I am today.

3. The M-Word - Love

4. Jim Rohn - Philosophy
This one is easy for me too. I feel totally and completely blessed that this individual came into my life when he did. So many of the ideas and philosophies that I share with people have come from him. I think they think I have just come up with them on my own. Well, some I have or put my own personal spin on. But the basis for all the philosophies and ideas come from Jim Rohn. "Is easy to do, it it's easy not to do". "The five laws of association. You will become the average of the five people you hang around the most." All those sorts of philosophies and thoughts and ideas came from Jim Rohn.

5. Bob Mayer - Integrity
The first thing that comes to my mind when I think about Bob Mayer is the time that I spent with him, I think is the only portion of my life I don't regret. I feel like I learned invaluable lessons from him and I just remember feeling good, thinking I was good and doing good when we had our relationship.  It was by far one of the most positive impacts for relationships of my life.

6. My Grandmothers
I've been trying to think for some time of when it seems like my life had become, for lack of a better word, desperate. Many of you, that know me, remember both of my grandmothers. I was very close to both of them and did feel unconditional love from both of them. Right now I'm talking about Nana. For those of you who remember, she was the one that lived in Meadowcreek Nursing Center across from the mall. I made it a point to go see her each day. Even if it was for just a few brief minutes. Many of my friends and colleagues would go with me for these visits. I always found that cool for some reason. In fact, if you are a friend, colleague, acquaintance, or you know me in some way and you went with me to see her would you leave something in the comments please. I would love to hear something you remember from those days. Those days seem so distant yet so uncomplicated.