Memory Eight (Brooks & Dunn, The M-Word)

Memory Eight:

I could not believe it when I heard Brooks & Dunn were calling it quits. Well I guess I couldn't believe it. They've managed to stay on top for their entire career, so I don't blame them for wanting to go out on top. When they announced the Last Rodeo tour, I knew that I had to go and see them as many times as I  could.

I know this sounds cheesy, but it's been one of those things in my life that has been stable. I know that's totally hard for some of you to understand, but I find comfort in sitting in the Star Plex in Dallas after the show was over knowing they'll be back the next year and I'll be sitting there once again.  It's something stable I've always looked forward to. So when I saw that they were going to be in Spokane, Washington and I knew I had a friend there that wanted me to come visit, I thought  this is the perfect time.

There I was sitting in the Spokane Arena having a great time when they started THAT  song. I've heard them do THAT song before without the M-Word and I always think about her. But this time it really got to me. I reached down for my phone  and I dialed her number  that I did not even think I would remember, and I slide the phone in my shirt pocket.  I really didn't know if #1 I dialed the right number, #2 if she answered, #3  if I got voicemail  or #4 if she just answered and hung up on me.  It was about midnight or after and my phone rings. And it's the M-Word, so I answer.

She said she got my message and she could hear the song playing, and she wanted me to know in her own exact words, "I still can't listen to that song when it comes on the radio today." I told her that I meant it back then and I still mean it now, and that seemed like I was talking to a rock. Then I was thinking to myself, if it's midnight here that means it's 2 AM in Texas. What in the world is she doing at 2 AM? I knew she was driving but I guess some jealousies never go away.

I did not ask her what she was doing or where she had been because some questions are better left unasked. Then she tells me the news.

Wait, before I tell you what the news is, she is graduating mid-May and she will be an RN. So I am super proud of her, I must say. She's the only one in her family that will, maybe I should say it this way, she's the only one in her family that has  the chance of thinking and living outside the box. Last time I talked to her, she said she was graduating in May and was moving to Dallas. Well, I was going to pay for her move and her first six months in Dallas just to get her out of San Angelo! Well, you guessed it, she's not moving.

So now the news, she tells me that Brooks & Dunn are coming to Dallas in late May and she has got tickets to go see them. I already knew they were coming to Dallas in late May because I have two tickets to go see them. My first thought was I have already asked Coach to go with me to that concert, so how am I going to get her a ticket? Then it occurred to me that she does not need me to get her a ticket, she is all grown up and can get her own ticket which obviously she already has,  two tickets in fact. She tells me that she and her sister are going. Honestly, that was a sigh of relief. It's really strange because I so wanted to ask her to go with me but I thought that she wouldn't want to go or she wouldn't want to go with me. Looks like I was right on one of those.

So now I have to be honest. I am feeling a little bit hijacked. This is the last time they are playing in Dallas and I have to share it with her. Granted she is in an entirely different section and with her sister and I'm with my best friend. I don't know if it's just me but I find that awkward. And she even said, "Did you think Brooks & Dunn would come to Texas for the last time and I wouldn't go see them?"

I was thinking to myself, and the first time we saw them together, for that matter, the only time she's seen them was with me. Okay, I know what you're thinking, look at the positive. I won't have to use any of my cell phone minutes to call her during that song. She'll already be there. That's about the only positive thing I can think of. You know she told me one time, long after we broke up, that everything I said would happen in her life had come true. You know sometimes I don't want to be right. I just won't be happy. (Take The Poll On The Home Page Top Right)