I have been very fortunate to receive some closure in some non-traditional ways. But I still must say that there is no way in the world that you can share as much as Little Blonde and I did together and her not be able to give me 45 seconds of closure. And I hate to say this, but what a person does tells you what she is? I've done no harm to her or her daughter. I know she's mad at me because I didn't take out the trash. I would love to have just a minimum of a 45 second conversation to offer some closure to myself.
What's worse is she knows how important that is to me and she doesn't care whatsoever. Also I have got all of the text messages, all of the e-mails, saying how much she loves me and no matter what I ever did she would love me unconditionally. What does unconditionally mean in her mind? I've been very careful not to say anything negative about Little Blonde because there isn't very much negative to say. Other than she and her daughter stole my heart completely and kicked me out because I didn't take out the trash. I think I'm owed at least 45 seconds on the phone to get some closure from that.
I'm asking in the very nicest way, I know I'm going to list her e-mail address again, and I am begging you to please e-mail her directly and urge her to give me 45 seconds. I think most of you would agree if you're intimate with someone as much as we were intimate, and she called the school and told him that it was okay if I ever picked up her daughter, things can't change that fast. So I'm asking for some help here and in fact I'll even put her e-mail address and her phone number and you can send her a text message. I hope some of you understand, if not all of you, that you don't go from loving someone intensely every day to just nothing. If I could do that I wouldn't be human. Please help me.
A personal note to Little Blonde: I am not going away. You have found someone thats going to stick with you through the bad and the good even if you choose not to participate. I'm involved now for two reasons. I love The littlest blonde will all of my heart, and I'll love you and I can see the potential in all the good you have inside of you. So either bad or good you finally have come across somebody that's not going to give up on you. This is why it messes with my mind so much. Maybe that's what you want. I don't know, but I don't understand how we can be so close and a week later you will not take my phone calls? I'm sorry I'm not going to give that up until I get an explanation.
I know that you loved me, and I know that you love me. And I know that you know I'd love and love you. I think I just got too close and you got scared. Which is fine, but that's what I need to hear. Little Blonde, you know me very well. It could be a week from now or it could be this time seven years from now and I will not give up. I believe the definition of commitment is doing the thing you said you would do long after the feeling you said it in has left you.
One more for you. What a person is will either promote them or expose them. Think about that, time will either promote you or expose you. I guess you can be held up in your house or the Iron Horse for the next couple years and lead a life, notice I didn't call it a happy life. You know another good question is why haven't you had a serious relationship in nine years?
I'm going to end it with this, there was someone who left a comment on one of the previous posts that said Little Blonde got divorced in '07, this is true. But then she had to get divorced again because she went back to the guy and it was counted as a common law marriage so that's where I came up with my '09???