JR Ewing Part-2 (Editor Free)

Things were looking very good until today she has taken a sudden turn for the worst.
Have you ever done something but you don't realize that you have done it or doing it? I don't have anyone else to blame but myself. But over the last few years I have successfully isolated myself.  I was not aware of what I was doing at the time, but it was definitely me and no one else's fault but my own. I used to have one particular aunt and uncle I was close to and now it's like I don't even know them. I have an adopted family that I was extremely close to for many years and they no longer know who I am nor do I know who they are. I will emphasize once again, I will take 100% of the blame. As I was dating a certain someone this year I remember talking to them and they couldn't understand why at times I felt so alone. But as we discussed it she did come to understand how alone I truly am.  I guess that's why it felt so good to be a part of something temporarily. But don't worry I isolated myself from that as well.  Dr. Phil always says “you can't change what you don't acknowledge” I believe this to be true. So if I go back and try to isolate the timeframe that all this started happening it would have to be July 4, 2005. That is literally the day my entire world, and perception of people changed. That would be the day that I found out about all of littleone's indiscretions.  And once again it takes two to run a relationship off into the ditch.  So I'll take my part of the blame for that as well.  I will also say ever since then any and all females that I let into my life have been complete liars. I don't know if they only lie to me or they were also lying to themselves or combination of both. I do know I am so sick and tired of hearing “I'll love you forever and I'll never leave” to only find them gone the next day. You know part of me thinks if I talked to littleone and received some sort of closure thinks might be better. But I'm sure that's not going to happen. And as for the other ones they are way too selfish to allow that to happen.
So to sum it up I will take full responsibility and 100% of the blame for where I am in my life right now. I will not blame my past, I will not blame my parents, I will not blame any ex-girlfriend's, I blame no one but myself. It's not what happens to you it's what you do about it that counts. And I totally suck at that.