The Dream

Here we are four months since Maria Ochoa from San Angelo, Texas left.  I have such strange feelings and mixed emotions. I definitely know what one of the feelings is.  I miss her presence. We combined households and cohabitated, shared household duties and shared all the awkward moments that comes with living with someone and then she's just gone. If only it were that easy. 

People are surprised that I even still think about her and think I should have been over her a long time ago. Why don't you try standing in my shoes before you're so quick to judge? I was with this girl for three years.  I was in what I thought was a great relationship for three years. As time went on, I invested more and more emotionally to the relationship. When she was investing more and more emotionally and physically outside of the relationship.

For those of you that don't know, I don't date very much. I pretty much just find the girl that I like and get into a relationship. If only I could say we just grew apart and we both made the decision to move on or something like that. But that's not the way it was at all. You don't just invest all this time, energy, effort and love and then just get over it like that. You don't do that unless you are her. She moves on effortlessly. If you heard her tell it, she hurts too and it's not effortless and it's really hard on her.  Let's just say that were true, but what has she done about it? I will tell you nothing. I haven't received one letter, email, voicemail, text message, nothing since she left. Not an apology, not an I'm sorry, nothing.

I do know how she is able to just move on so effortlessly though. She was and still is involved with other people. And that will work for a little while as a distraction, But then the distraction becomes too distracting. That to me is kind of the true test if anything was real between us or not. There is no way under any circumstance......

Part 2 SOON