The Dream Part 3

What causes such mixed emotions?

For so long I thought she was a certain person. A sweet, kind, caring, smart, beautiful, didn't stay on her phone all the time, interested in me, attractive, sexy, curious and overall awesome person. I not only believed these things about her for so long, I felt these things too. And then to find out that she is just the opposite of these things? 

I absolutely hate knowing that. I wish that we just hadn't worked out or something like that. Why did it have to turn out that she was so evil? And why be so evil to me?