I Hate You--Don't Leave Me - Part 6

I feel like this book is taking forever to read. I guess I am not used to reading informational books. I am used to reading fiction. Anyways, what I really learned from this chapter is the importance and relevance of the family of someone with bpd. I cannot stress enough how important it came off to me that the family is probably the biggest source for enabling if they are not educated on personality disorders. Enabling is the worst thing one can do for a person with a disorder. Therefore, the family needs to get educated so that they are able to help their loved ones instead of contributing to the problem and the person with bpd is also responsible for communicating what is going on. It is almost like a partnership. There has to be a lot of communication and understanding. If the family is not supportive or believes that their loved one has a personality disorder then the person with the disorder can get worse. I’m learning that getting educated about the disorder is one of the best things anyone can do. It is like Dr. Phil says, you can’t change what you don’t acknowledge. - Dear

I Hate You--Don't Leave Me - Part 5


This chapter really made me think about how hard it may be, or is, to have relationships with other people. Whether they be friendships, business partners, lovers, or any other types of relationships are difficult to have if the other people involved are not informed of bpd or any other disorder. It definitely could make your life that much harder to live on top of having a disorder. I am trying to not worry too much about this but ignorance is not bliss. Therefore, I do have to acknowledge what is going on so that the people around me can get educated. I have also come to the conclusion that if the people you are around are not educated then you will never have that relationship that you really want. They will never really know or understand who you are. That thought can be scary and I feel like I have been there. The best thing, I think, is to become fully aware,  educated and then acknowledge what the reality is because if you don’t you are not any closer to being or feeling happy. You have to be honest with yourself at least of what is really going on. - Dear

LOW 45 - Relationships, Speedconnect, & Randomness


The conversation starts out by Johnny pointing out to Maria that since the last podcast was put out Maria and Johnny had just gotten back together and she is still here. Then the topic of planning for a marriage vs. planning for a wedding goes up for debate. Johnny thinks that people spend more planning their wedding instead of planning for their marriage. Such as who is going to do dishes and so forth vs. where do you want to have the wedding. Figuring who does what in the relationship can be a little tricky it seems to be. Johnny’s biggest point is what do you do when your partner does not follow through on what they say consistently, to the point where you don’t want to ask them to do anything? What Johnny and Maria are both learning is the importance of communication. Now to a different topic, an internet provider! SpeedConnect is who Johnny and Maria use for their internet provider and ever since Zipnet was bought out by SpeedConnect things are not the same. There is a possibility for some internet changes. Tune in to find out

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LOW 44 - You Ask Why, I Ask Why Not


Amin and Maria discuss why they are both present recording a podcast. Maria explains a little bit about why and how she got to where she is now in terms of a relationship. Amin talks about him coming for a visit and how he disappeared for a little while. Not long after, Johnny joins the conversation and mentions where he and Maria stand in terms of a relationship or not. Johnny brings up the topic of scheduling things far in advance and asks Amin why he has a hard time making commitments that are far out. Amin responds as to why he is that way and then Maria comments about one major thing of why Amin might not like things schedules so far out. Johnny begins to thank Amin for his visit and for being considerate and understanding of the current circumstances. Tune in!

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I Hate You--Don't Leave Me - Part 4


As I am reading this book, I can’t help but think to myself there are so many things, so many factors, that contribute to personality disorders. The surroundings, the nourishment of the psyche, so many things that it’s hard to wrap your mind around everything. I also find myself asking why me? Why can’t I think and act in a sense like everyone else? Now, don’t confuse that with me saying I want to be just like everyone else. I just want to be able to relate to people on the same level and I don’t feel like I can do that. If I do it’s because I am acting. I do not want to act. I just want to be me and be accepted for who I am, flaws and all. Very rarely do I really connect with someone. I know that isn’t how the world works though. Like Johnny has said people DO judge you by first appearances. As I read this chapter, I could not help but also think how many people actually have the same thing as me or feel the same way as me. The stories they provide are of people that have had much harder lives than me. At the same time, those stories do make me grateful for the good things I have experienced and the good things I do have in my life. So my goal is to not let my disorder bring me down. I do want to make a difference, even if just a little one. - Dear

I Hate You--Don't Leave Me - Part 3

This chapter was relatively ok. More informational than insightful. I do find interesting the nature vs. nurture and what came first, the chicken or the egg because these types of questions are the kind that arise with dealing with personality disorders. There are so many questions that it seems you may never really know the answer. I also find it interesting that a lot of borderlines are affected by the their mothers and this is where the nature vs. nurture comes in. Was it the environment the mother was providing or was she keeping her child too close? Those things I find most fascinating. I learned the stages of what an early borderline may go through and I suppose they are useful in a way to try and figure out why I have done some of things I have in the past. I feel those things don’t apply to me because I already am an adult. Although, I must not disregard the information because it could be useful in the future. What came first, the chicken or the egg? - Dear

Brooks and Dunn Will Reunite - YES

First Shania Twain came back now Brooks & Dunn. Dreams 
do come true. I am so happy!! I have to find my friend from Oklahoma and go to a concert with her.
Next summer, Brooks and Dunn will reunite with one of their most famous collaborators. Reba McEntire has teamed up with the legendary country duo for a residency at Las Vegas’ Caesars Palace.

The shows will be the first Kix Brooks and Ronnie Dunn have played together since their 2010 retirement as a duo. Both have since released solo albums.

McEntire joins the duo for all 12 announced dates at the Colosseum. The first three fall between June 24-27, 2015. Additional shows are scheduled for the weeks of July 1, December 2 and December 9.

Tickets for select performances go on sale on Thursday (Dec. 4) through the Colosseum’s website or by calling 866-320-9763. The prices will range from $59.50 to $205, plus additional charges and fees.

Dunn had been hinting at something big with McEntire and Brooks in recent weeks on his Facebook page, where he’s very active. The legendary female vocalist was the first to sign with Nash Icon Music, and Dunn says he’s done the same.

“Talking to Kix,” Dunn wrote on Facebook late last month. “He’s talkin’ back.”

This is especially significant because since Brooks & Dunn split, the relationship has seemed strained. A year ago, the two debated the reasons the duo split over social media. Neither had publicly expressed interest in a reunion.

Brooks & Dunn teamed with McEntire for two singles, the chart-topping ‘If You See Him / If You See Her’ from 1998 and the Gold-selling ‘Cowgirls Don’t Cry’ from the duo’s final studio album ‘Cowboy Town.’

An official Reba and Brooks & Dunn website has also been set up to keep fans informed.

From: Tasteofcountry.com

I Hate You--Don't Leave Me - Part 2


I’m having a hard time believing that a large amount of the U.S. population has bpd or antisocial disorder. I just finished the second chapter. Which goes into detail about the criteria for bpd and I think I qualify for a least 5 of 8. I don’t know if knowing that is a good or bad thing. If you are experiencing any of the things that I am please leave a comment. I would love to hear that I am not the only one that feels the way I do. I also am realizing just how easy it is to misdiagnose bpd. It can be masked so easily that it is camouflaged. It’s so astounding how many other things go along with bpd. There are some lines in the book that I think that is exactly how I am and I am not sure how to feel about that. Like I have said, I just want to be me in a good sense. - Dear

I Hate You--Don't Leave Me

What you will see over the next few weeks is a book review from Dear. Enjoy. Ask questions.



It’s been a while since I have written something. Something new I am trying out is reading a chapter of this book and writing about what I think about each chapter. Considering I have been struggling to figure out what is wrong with me. Well…..thanks to Johnny we have ruled it down to borderline/antisocial personality disorder. I am now educating myself because I am having a difficult time really wrapping my mind around everything. The one thing I identify with the most from the first chapter is something called splitting. It is sort of like black and white thinking in terms of emotions, as if someone could only be good or bad. For example, one could completely and entirely admire someone one day and the next be completely enraged at the same person for the smallest thing. This is done as a defense mechanism. This is where I think I have done this a lot and so you can only guess that having interpersonal relationships is hard because a person like me is able to get close to someone just enough to then decide I am going to self destruct as a means to prove that I don’t know what I am doing. This book is very insightful for me so far. So much to learn and I do want to “feel” normal but not necessarily be normal. Just me. - Dear

LOW 43 - Three's A Crowd


Johnny starts off the conversation by admiring a new gadget he has that he has been waiting for for a while now. Johnny and Maria then go into the details about the paleo diet. They talk about the guidelines, what you should or shouldn’t eat, and benefits. They talk about about some recipes that they really like including the recipe that Johnny likes the most. Maria then mentions that she wants to start writing her own segment on the website. It won’t be anything in particular but do be watching out for something of that sort in the near future. Johnny starts talking about an scenario that he has used to explain something to Maria and how this scenario applies to staying level headed and kind when someone else is not being so nice. Yet, Maria has managed to misunderstand the scenario. As the scenario is drawn out it manages to get personal and get related to the things that Johnny and Maria have going on in their lives. They start discussing issues they are facing. As a result emotions get stirred up so tune it to find out what happens!

 

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